Do as the Lord does

So
if there's a God
who merely for his divine play,
deceives me:
lets Maya dwell in me
creates me and then hides from me,
makes me crawl suffer die reborn beg worship meditate enquire
control-breath destroy-mind pray renounce kneel-down
just to let me have a sight of Him.
then
shall not I
for my survival or to get a sight of Him
merely deceive others?